Thursday, October 8, 2009


The symptoms of PMDD are similar to those of PMS, but they are generally more severe and debilitating. Symptoms occur during the last week of most menstrual cycles and usually improve within a few days after the period starts. According to the research criteria in the DSM-IV, a woman may have PMDD if she has five or more of the following symptoms during the week before menstruating for most of her menstrual cycles in the last year.

The symptoms of PMDD are as follows:

* Hypersomnia or insomnia
* Feeling nervous, anxious, and irritable
* marked depressed mood, and mood lability (crying spells for no reason)
* Feeling of sadness or hopelessness, possible suicidal thoughts
* Trouble concentrating
* Panic Attacks
* Decreased interest in usual activities
* Marked appetite change, overeating, food cravings
* lack of energy

Physical symptoms of PMMD are as follows:

* bloating,
* breast tenderness,
* weight gain,
* headaches, and
* joint or muscle pain

These symptoms can affect your relationships and work ability. If you have some of these symptoms 10 to 14 days before your period and they improve when your period starts, you might have PMDD.

I'm glad I have an answer now. I just wish I would have found it sooner. I'm a pretty happy go lucky person in general, except during these times and that's what hurt me the most. Not knowing why I was so sad, confused and irritated. This can be triggered to a new lifestyle. YOU GET WHAT I'M SAYIN, LADIES? If you got habits and feel this way, break em. Your health and sanity is far more worth it in the end. On that note... wish me luck.

Monday, October 5, 2009


Dear Mary Jane,

It's been nice knowing you...

Crazy huh? Big changes are coming.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Dear Love Lost,

I can see it's hurting you
I can feel your pain
It's hard to see the sunshine through the rain
I know sometimes it seems as if it’s never gonna end
But you'll get through it
just don't give in

You should reach to find the truth in love
The answers there within,
I know that life can make you feel
It's much harder than it really is
But we'll get through it (we’ll get through it)
Just don't give in...



I didn't really wake up on the right side of the bed, but was motivated to clean. So I was doing extensive cleaning... the works. I sorted all the clothes I didn't want anymore along with shoes and bags and put them in a large garbage bag. Hours later after working on the apt and such me and Erik took the bag to donate to the nearby church. The lady said "I don't think we really do anything like that..." WHAT?! This church has more homeless people sleeping outside of the church after hours than any other NY church I've seen... and they don't take any donations? So I said "Well, if the church won't help the people sleeping on God's doorstep for some kind of help or protection, I will." So I sat it in a corner of the church where I always see homeless people cubbied away. After dinner and I got ready for work I drove past the church and the bag was still there with a few items laying around it, but no one around it. So after a long and slightly strenuous night at work, we got the cab driver to drop us off at the side of the church. Surprisingly there was only one person sleeping outside and she was covered in my clothes. She looked at me with the biggest smile on her face. Really her face said it all, because she was looking at me with so much admiration and satisfaction in her eyes. It was almost like she knew it was me. She just kept staring at me and smiling. For all I know, she could have been on drugs and felt really good at that moment. Whatever the case, her smile and lookin at me like I was an angel made me feel really good. It made all the bullshit that happened throughout the day worth it in the end.

Monday, August 17, 2009


Generally, I think I'm sensitive to people's feelings and needs, but lately I've felt sensitive to things I'm not even conscious of. I had a very close friend since I was 4 yrs old who ended up passing away when I turned 18. I've been thinking about him a lot lately just randomly and last night I had an intense dream about him. So I wake up curious and look at some memorabilia. Then I found the paper from his funeral and he died on this very day 8 years ago. So strange!

No matter what, you're never forgotten. R.I.P. Will

Friday, May 8, 2009

Mary J Blige

You turned back and back i came running
But the simple fact is that you ain't want me
done enough lying and crying to myself nothing left to do but move
what else can I do but leave
I believed that you would marry me but now
I gotta breeze I be's with LT when you come to your senses
but then it's too late that's always how it be

hahahahaha i laughed when i read these lyrics. "it's funny cuz it's true."

aNYthing shoot, round two (punks)

This was one of the most fun shoots I've done lately. How could you not have fun with these boys? Oh and to the team who was playing bike lacrosse five feet away that day... "you're welcome." ;-)

photos taken by Dana Lauren Goldstein